The Birth of a Desire

I love 3C, not just because of the staff but because this area in Manila Doctors Hospital has been the most challenging for me. It's fun doing all the work, I don't see it as toxic the way I see it before. So what's challenging about that?

I met a patient at the 3C area and his prognosis was quite poor. So bad that he couldn't talk, he just sleeps while aided by a mechanical ventilator. As a student nurse, I can't help it thinking "What can I do?" But as a Christian, I asked the Lord in silence, "Lord, if touch him, will there be a big change in his prognosis?" I didn't ask God directly for his total and instant healing, probably because my faith is not as big as a mustard seed? Or afraid of the result?

I know that the Lord has His timing, or He knows that I am not ready yet. As I have said, I love 3C because it became the birthplace of a new desire in healing. For now, I will provide the best care I could give for my patients.

A Channel of God's Love

Taking up Nursing has never been an easy decision for me. As a matter of fact when I was about to walk to school for an enrollment, I wept and asked the Lord if this is His will for me. My other choices was to become an educator or a dentist but these was beyond what my parents and siblings dreamed of my becoming so they asked me to take up nursing.

I have to swallow it for years, I hated the shoes that the school required us to wear. The demanding clinical instructors and the way they grade the students. The way I kept on blabbing when I go to my R.L.E. duties etc. I am a man of God but I hated the people around me especially those who implement the law. I say that I am a Christian but I forgot to guard my heart against hatred. So it seems that I need the changing...

And the Lord did, I decided to put my trust in Him as I used the power of His word, the author of my life and it was not in vain. One of the main practices that I have to do during my morning devotional time is to pray for the school, and the teachers; their energy and heart to teach. But the most significant praise I got so far is the 'love' I have found in the Lord which I pass through the people around me. This love enabled me to care for my patients, obey my teachers, and try to understand them and pray for them.



It's a hard habit, but then the Lord says that true love endures... Can't complain about that anymore.

Reincarnated

The meaning of 'Reincarnation' tells me that a person's soul is reborn in a new body. So it's not like that I am experiencing because my physical self didn't die in this world. My physical cues remained, but the heart, mind and soul - all new.

As weeks have passed by, life changing things have confronted me. Things that crashed my guilt and was broken into pieces, left beside the road as I continue to grow and move on to my journey.

A man was introduced to me, His name is Jesus. They said, He loves the weak and Him there is strength. Not only that, He promised that He will grant me eternal life if I would just believe that He conquered the grave and make Him the Lord of my life.

Agnostic I may be in the past, but these words struck me like a lightning bolt which have clashed on a tree. Instantly, fire was brought to my heart. Hence, I am now a 'firebrand', a person who is passionate for a cause. Truly, with this I never felt this much hope for my future.

To those who took time reading this... I challenge you. When you face God, what would you say? What if God asks you... Why should I let you go inside with me in paradise?

Think about it. Romans 6:23

Trail Life is a different blog. You ask why do this?
Yet another simple answer.

First, 'I am the light of the world' I am one of God's messenger.
Second, He died for me, I live for Him.
Third, True love casts out fear. I love God and people.